Borderline Personality Disorder

I’ve been up and down the last few days but I think Todd and I are on the same page now. It always makes it easier when we are a team and not divided. This is all about my dentist and shit, All sorts of billing issues, but he is the best dentist with the best bedside manner I’ve ever seen. He and his wife run 3 practices.

I’m not here to talk about the dentist, I’m here to tell you that the billing issues that confuse me, stress me out to all hell. Make me feel like an idiot. But Todd did all the research. In reality the work that was denied by the insurance company totaled $1700 and the billing office is charging me $777. Confused. Confused how they could put 7 fillings in my mouth and cannot provide the insurance company enough proof that I needed fillings. And pissed off about being blown off by the front office who tells me to call the insurance company who says there’s really nothing they could do. It went through 3 time and that that’s the max.

Okay enough about the dentist. It just makes me feel like I’m stupid is all and that triggers me. I don’t like being taken advantage of. Thats a huge trigger.

In other news my weight is coming down by pounds now instead of ounces which make me happy. This is a good thing that makes me feel good about myself. Everyone needs a lift like that every now and then, Which reminds me, I need to eat. Think I’ll have a smoothie and save my salad for dinner.

I went to bed very early last night because I could not take the rest of the night. I needed to be knocked out. Too much hurt that has followed me into this morning.

I’m surrounded by flowers. That feels good. Today is water day. I have not taken Sami for a walk due to the dentist appointment that for some reason was rescheduled to 2:15,. But I need to remember, losing weight is 90% diet, 10% exercise. Some days I don’t have to exercise and I still lose weight. Ok, smoothie time.

If I had one wish for today it would be for anyone who reads this to thinks good thoughts for me today. I’m obviously all over the place, feeling low and stupid and am having problems with borderline personality problems today. Please leave me a message of encouragement. I promise I will comment back.

Love to all