The Good The Bad and The Ugly

So, I have Mom up for the weekend. Luckily she likes too watch TV. Not that I don’t enjoy conversations, I just don’t like entertaining. I’m an introvert with agoraphobia. At least that’s how it feels.

Todd is busy killing things on his game. And I’m sitting here writing.

Today I’m feeling a little self-conscious about myself. I’m exercising every day, even just a little. I’m seeing small results, which I feel good about. I know there is no magic pill that will melt my fat in one day. Although I am taking supplements to melt my fat, it’s not magic. It’s taking so long. I have a cruise in May and I want to look halfway decent. I’m feeling shaky. Like if I don’t make my goal, I’ll be devastated.

Although I have a great cup of coffee and cigarette, I’m feeling blue.

Not unusual. I feel blue often. Thats what the pills are for. While I feel better than I have felt in years, there is always that day.

On the flip side, we went to my daughters play last night and it was amazing just as she was. She, being my 16 year old, the youngest of my brood, is a super star. She always has been. She’s been in every play, every talent show her school or community center had to offer. Now she almost always earns the lead. The clip below is from "The Great Gatsby" where she plays Daisy. Last night she had a song solo and knocked it out of the park. Thats my girl. Heres a clip of my superstar below…I have been unable to get sound on mobile so you'll have to see this on your laptop to hear her sing.

Sorry!